Deeply missed today.
Mood shortcut: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaKqyzYZgIs 😕
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This is the current process that my mind is running.
This task’s purpose is very simple: “unassign” meaning from past events.
In the life of a person, the mind receives many events as input, interprets them and as a result gives them a meaning, from which it will determine the next actions for the person to do. This is the routine drill and it works. Sometimes though, this meaning assignment process fails, incorrect meaning is assigned to events, resulting fatally in incorrect actions that can cause a major crash in the person’s life. So in order to prevent that, it is necessary to operate a purge from time to time, to “unassign” meaning from past events when such meaning makes the system unstable invariably. For example, bad thoughts, bad behaviours, bad feelings, provoked by such meaning are the clear sign that the meaning assignment failed on some level. I don’t know though what will advent of such orphan events. I guess they will be collected by some other process that will either delete them or store them in some dead memory. I don’t really care.
So this is what my mind is doing at the moment !
I am patiently waiting. Eventually my system will recover better stability 😉
Something I want to declare here: I love technology. It is part of my life, both personal and professional. There is no hard frontier between the two for me. Technology blends.
I’m saying this because in the French lifestyle there is this very strong separation between your professional life and your personal life, and work is perceived as the “evil” that consumes you and prevents you from living a happy life. Work is really the thing that gives you money, but eventually it’s like a prison where you just wait for the release time when finally you can retire. It is really like that! This leads to a very strange situation where you go to a place where you spend 30% of your time with people that you don’t know and don’t care to know, that is just weird and sad. But again, it is really like that! You see some people hating their job so much but who still come just for the money. Why does it have to be like this?
I’ve always found myself strange for actually liking what I do and being interested in it “outside of work” or go out with my coworkers “outside of work”, I’ve seen myself “uncool”, because “uh uh you don’t have a life outside of work!”. Well, thinking about it, if I wanted a so called “life outside of work”, I think I could have one. The reason for the way it is, is because I like what I do and it’s my life! Yes, I enjoy attending tech events “outside of work”, tech is occupying 80% of my mind, yes I enjoy going out with my coworkers, thank goodness! Yes, I want to know them, and yes I could be friends with them. There is no big limit for me, technology is part of my fabric, it is like that! However indeed not everybody has the same mindset so it’s not always reciprocal, but it is like that.
I just want to pin here that there is nothing bizarre in liking what you do to the point where it becomes in fact your life. This doesn’t mean that I work on week-ends or at 3AM, but it means that I care for my field AT ALL TIMES. So, imagine a workplace where you would work only with friends, that would be the best! That’s really how I envision the ideal job. Until then, let’s make the most of what I have and ENJOY.
Yes, technology is my life and it IS pretty cool like that 😉
I want to pin this moment forever in the data skyland: this week-end I went sky diving !!!
#Unforgettable #Incredible #AbsoluteAwesome #BigThrill #PureFactor
This could provoke some big stress and fear, in my case I landed the jump completely euphoric (imagine head spinning). This is absolutely something to do in your life, one day. It’s a fantastic sensation. Thinking about it is very scary, but doing it is something else, it’s pure joy, an ABSOLUTE BIG THRILL. I’ll rely on this when challenges arise and tell myself: remember, you can do this because you have jumped in the sky !!!
So here is my favourite tweet of ALL TIMES (childhood combined):
Believe in yourself, you can do this !
I wish there was a Mind Redirect.
Have you ever had the experience where your mind is stuck with an idea? You can’t detach from it. Yet, it’s an old idea that has absolutely no ground in reality. As if your mind points to an outdated repository to download its libraries that allow it to function well. This leaves you with a sick mind that doesn’t function well because it doesn’t have the correct libraries! It keeps querying something that doesn’t exist anymore and that is not real. It is so crazy. If only there was a Mind Redirect to redirect your mind to ideas that work with reality! No, seriously!
I don’t know how to liberate from this. If I could script my mind, I would totally do it… but how could I right now! Damn. Instead, I will have to tweak my perception into thinking that something in reality is not the thing that I was expecting and so on.. so organic, so inefficient!
UGHHHH UGHHHH UGHHHH! #AgonyOfTheBeing